I'm always putting on a normal facade and trying to act like everything's alright. Staying like this, i feel like i'm not going anywhere at all. Whenever i'm back, and i know its just on my part that i always felt like this. Feeling like i'm lacking, and ugly compared to the rest. And then envy and jealousy will consume me. I know this negativity comes from within me solely. But as i stay here, this negativity never fades, no matter how much i try to convince myself to get rid of those thoughts and emotions. I wanna break free, from this shell that i hide in. Can i improve myself and be a better person when i'm like this? Caught in my own trap while searching for a way out? What can i do? Can somebody just light that path for me to walk on. I need it badly. Cos i wanna stop with this pretense. Before i finally snap. Please.