Its time to move on, now that I'm back at the starting point.
Never am I going to give up my lifelong dreams.
No way am I gonna do that.
I will still strive to achieve.
If I fall down I'm gonna get back on my feet.
Find e path again if i'm lost.
And if I find myself engulfed in darkness I will search for the light till I find it.
So there.

You know that I'm living in a huge household.
Its happy and everything but sometimes I just felt that I dun fit in.
(Please note that I said sometimes only okay.)
I kind of feel like I'm unimportant and I feel different from the rest of my siblings.
Is it all just in my mind?
Oh well, I hope these feelings will pass soon.

How irresponsible can someone be?
There was almost an accident and if it were to happen, I would be one of the victims of that accident.
And it happened when me and my sister was crossing the traffic light.
The green man has just lighted up and we had just crossed a few steps.
When this white taxi just zoomed past us.
And it was directly in front of us.
I'm really grateful and thankful to Allah for protecting us.
If my leg were a little bit further out, the taxi would have ran over my foot.
And I'm also thankful that my sis were walking beside me and not in front of me.
If anything were to happen to her, I dunno what I'd do.
Seriously, what is wrong with the driver?
Gone mad? Drunk? But it was in broad daylight.
The taxi was so fast that when I turned my head, it was already gone.
I wanted to capture the plate number, but it was impossible to do so, with that kind of speed.
Thinking about this incident just give me the chills, man.
Okay, that's it, must get that thought out of my mind.

And below is a pic of me and my youngest sis.
Isn't she cute?? =)))))

I do have a lot of things on my mind, but I dare not let it out on this space of mine.
I'm feeling a little bit melancholic nowadays.
I keep telling myself not to be too over-sensitive, but i can't help it.
My brain's sensitive, I guess.

I made some decisions, though it is not finalized yet.
I will not disclose any information until everything is over, so be patient, and don't pressurize me into telling you.
But this decision I've made, I've thought a lot before making up my mind.
I don't really care what you'll say, but hope that you'll understand me, not ridicule me.
Respect the decision I've made.
And I know this is not the end, but will be a new beginning and chapter in my life.

The first day of a new year, 2011 it is.
Had the longest talk with my dad today, one to one.
And I'm glad we had the talk.
You can say it was a very emotional talk, so you have the idea of how it goes.
And I realized my mistake, my fault, the sin in which I've created.
I wish I could undone what I've done, but I know that's impossible.
I'm sorry dad for hurting you without knowing it.
I've learnt my lesson and will try to think wiser from now on.
Not to see and think blindly.

Confessed about something else too.
And glad that he did not get mad, and tried to be understanding too.
Whatever happened has happened, and we can't dwell too much on it.
We need to carry on, and deal with it as we go, if it needs to be dealt with.

And thus I say: HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!!
Let's put our best foot forward and try to make 2011 a better year than 2010!!
=)))))))))))