Love Song by Sarah Bareilles
Head under water,
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while.
The breathing gets harder, even I know that.
You made room for me but it’s too soon to see,
If I’m happy in your hands.
I’m unusually hard to hold on to.
Blank stares at blank pages.
No easy way to say this.
You mean well, but you make this hard on me.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this.
If you’re on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay.
If all you have is leaving,
I’m gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today.
Today.
I learned the hard way,
That they all say things you want to hear.
My heavy heart sinks deep down under you,
And your twisted words, your help just hurts.
You are not what I thought you were.
Hello to high and dry.
Convinced me to please you.
Made me think that I need this too.
I’m trying to let you hear me as I am.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one, you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's,
Make or breaking this.
If you’re on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay.
If all you have is leaving,
I’m gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today.
Promise me you'll leave the light on,
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone.
'Cause I believe there's a way you can love me because I say,
I won't write you a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one you see.
I'm not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this.
Is that why you wanted a love song,
'Cause you asked for it,
'Cause you need one you see.
I’m not gonna write you a love song,
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this.
If you’re on your way,
I’m not gonna write you to stay.
If your heart is nowhere in it,
I don’t want it for a minute.
Babe, I’ll walk the seven seas when I believe that there's a reason to,
Write you a love song today.
Today.
Hmm...my life is sooo boring, I tell you.
Everyday is the same routine. Wake up, eat breakfast and go to work, or if it's my off day, wake up, and then stick my eyes to the computer for three to five hours.
And after that, what else? Read a book.
My life is so damn predictable!! But I'm lucky to be this way, I guess. I'm fortunate to be able to lead a simple and comfortable lifestyle. Be thankful!! At least I'm not suffering like those people in Africa. Hey, why am I being political right now?
Ugh! Politics! Hate them!
Right. Stopping now or I'll never stop until I write all the stupid negative things about politics, which is quite a lot. Going out later to Toa Payoh and then to the library. Have to stock up my books. Have to. Books are essential in my life!!
Phew!
I am so exhausted! Yesterday I worked from 1pm till 9pm and the day before was from 2pm till 11pm. That Pauline. She said Jessie wasn't going to come but the fact is that Jessie did come. WTH!!
Luckily I managed to get the last train back home. But still, I missed the last 27 bus. Fortunately, mami came to fetch me or else I'll have to take the 325 bus and drop at that playground stop. Brr...that is sooo scary. Really. There is no one and furthermore the place is not well lit. Ok, that day is over. It's time to move on.
Yesterday...man!!
I hate that customer. Really really really hate him. I was serving another customer before him and would likely take some time as I was handling the money problem and I told him politely if he would like to go to the other cashier. And he yelled at me saying I shouldn't be chasing him away.
WHAT!!!
Go to hell ok?? All I had was good intentions so that he could pay for his items faster than having to wait for me. Yelling at me like that, who do you think you are? This is how people treat us cashiers, you see. They really think low of us. Sigh! What can I do?? Life is unfair.
Yay!!! Today is the taking of the O-level results day!! You must be cursing me for being so happy, huh, for those of you who's taking them today. But this is not because of you, but me! I've been waiting for a whole year for this day, for I can finally apply for poly admission. Ok, I'm stopping here man, wanna change my blogskin now. Tata!!
Sigh!! It's so good to be able to rest and do my things today, after all the things I've gone through the other days. You want to know what?? Well, I'll tell you only a couple of things, and not more than that. Here goes;
(1) On friday, while I was on the MRT on the way home, the indian man who's sitting beside me vomitted. Eww...No wonder he keeps covering his mouth. At first I didn't know that he had vomited, I heard these sounds, these puking sounds (ugh!) and when I turn my head, there he is, covering his mouth still but with puke escaping his hands. A chinese lady who was standing in front of him gave him a plastic bag (bless her) and he threw his puke in it. I gave him tissues to clean himself up. A lot of tissues. And he didn't even thank me!! Very rude manners, he had. Phew! Luckily he alighted the MRT a few stations later.
(2) Hmmm...I've been out yesterday, accompanying my sisters for an interview. Damn, they took so long to finish up the interview. I had to wait outside the office for like an hour. My legs felt like buckling at any moment. And I spent alot of money on food today. Ok, that's it.
Working tomorrow and all through the week. Heard that there will be two new DMs, one female one male. Hopefully they'll be better than that Dinosaur. Ooops! Hopefully he will not read this blog. Yes, he'll never read this cuz I'll never give him my blog add!!
I learned something yesterday when I was working. On Chinese New Year's Eve, the place I'm working will be open for 24 hours!!! Erm...I wonder who's going to work on that day...hopefully not me!!! The fact that I'm going to be working longer hours during Chinese New Year is enough, or else I'm going to be real exhausted. So I'll cross my fingers and hope that my luck will work on me.
Yesterday, met Stella at last!!! I met her during my lunch break which was at around 2:50pm or so, but unfortunately, we couldn't talk that much. * Sniff sniff.
Man, yesterday, there were so many customers. Non-stop, I tell you. My hands felt like they were going to drop at any moment...one after one after one, they come wanting to buy things. One customer bought two boxes of wine which costs $1334 altogether.
Very lazy to write any more. Going off to rest.
What's wrong with me, can anybody tell me? Since I've been working, when I come back home, all I can do is eat, eat, eat. Well, not always all the time, but I will stuff my face with food when I get the opportunity. I get hungry a lot. Sigh!! Luckily I never eat that much when I'm at work. In fact, I only eat Sushi when I'm having my lunch break at work, which isn't that much anyway. So hopefully it will be a balance and not make me gain weight!!!
Yeah! I bought a new jacket which costs $15, but its in purple colour. So far, I only see my colleagues at work wearing black or brown jackets. Is there a colour rule? Hmmm...whatever. I wanted to buy this brown jacket at Toa Payoh there but it's damn expensive!! $33!! Maybe when I have more money then I'll consider buying it.
HURRAY!!!
I got my own handphone!! Totally love it!! Well, actually I got the handphone on Saturday but I haven't had time to announce to the whole world until now. The brand is Sony Ericsson K530i, well, not the lastest model there is, but it's still ok, right? I don't mind any brand, having my own handphone is enough.
Work is just great, though the hours they gave me kept getting shorter and shorter. That I don't like. I want to work more hours so that I can get more money!!! Today I'm going out to Toa Payoh HDB to the Kelly Services to get more timesheets. Very troublesome, I guess. But at least they pay me more...
There's a new Manager at my workplace and his name is Kevin. We called him Dinosaur. Know why? Because he's big and mean. Really. Those who work the night shift will taste his wrath. And I going to get that tomorrow as I'm working the 6-10pm shift. I just don't really like him as everytime I gave him my float, he will bang all the coins I gathered inside the coin bag. Its SOOO annoying!!! Wanna smack his face!!! Ok, hopefully tomorrow I can go home earlier and not at 11pm, or else I wouldn't be able to get the last 27 bus!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! YEAR 2008!!!
Resolutions, resolutions??!! Be more active, lead a more healthier lifestyle, be a little more spendthrift (I spend a lot, you know) and save more money.
Yesterday, man, sooo tiring!! A LOT OF CUSTOMERS!!! Really non-stop until closing time which is at 10pm. Even the managers helped out. Know how much sale I made? Almost $10000!!! Well, I guess it's due to the countdown celebration which was held at the third floor. Hmmph! I can't watch the show as I have to catch the last 27 bus. I finished work at around 11pm (so late, have to count the money and everything) and the MRT journey took almost 30mins and the last 27 bus is at 11:35pm. Luckily I made to the bus interchange in time or else I would have missed the last bus.
And there's this one chinese guy, already quite old, bought 6 cans of beer which costs $9.90 for every two cans so I override the price for each can to $4.95. After I gave him his change and receipt, he then ask me how I counted all the items. He even ordered me to count for every items he bought. I have no choice but to take out my calculator and count. The total amount was correct!!! DUH!!!! He's treating me like I'm stupid!!! I FELT SO INSULTED!!!
At around 9 plus, a malay guy not more than twenty came and wanted to purchase two cans of beer...ummm....I guess he's one of them who's strayed from his religion. He wanted to pay by nets. I don't know how many times I swiped his card and each time his card was denied. His friends came and asked him what was his pin number. He told them he used his handphone number.....okaaaayy....aren't there only 6 digits for the pin number?? He pressed 8 digits!!! Hmmm...I wonder whether its his card...
Alright, that's over. Today I'm going to rest...sorry Stella, I can't go out with you today...I'm terribly exhausted...hope you'll understand.
