Story-of-my-life

Monday

So many things happen that it bothers me to put it into words.
What can I do?
What should I do?
How can I make it better?
I suppose the answer is nil.
All I can do is just move on and hope it gets better.
And pray to god for my handful of sins.
Seek forgiveness.
And wish it all away.

Thursday

Ughhh.......this flu is killing me..........
And yeah, the pic above was when I was still having my attachment and I had a very bad flu.
I had two days MC but the 'flu' still didn't give off any signs that its going to be gone anytime soon.
And so.....I had to wear a mask.
My bosses are two very clean-freak people, you know.
The husband even went around spraying the "i have no idea wat type of hygiene" spray.
Hello, I'm already wearing a mask, duh.
I'm putting up the pic since my sister said that my blog barely has any photos, which is true, i guess?? Hahaha....
Seriously, where do I find the time to take pics of myself?

Oh, oh, I finally ordered my first item from a blogshop.
The blogshop is called Orangebear, by theincognitagirl.
This blogshop is designed to cater to plus-size females.
So happy to know that I could find a place where I can buy those modern clothes that will fit me.
And the price of the items are quite reasonable.
Really, if you want to find them in singapore, the cost will definitely empty out my pockets and purse.
Thus, the first item I ordered is a legging.
Wanted to try wearing one since long ago, man.
But unfortunately, the ones that I saw were all too small for me.
Hmm, let's see if the size I chose really fit me well.
If it does, then I shall order more from this blogshop.
Yeeah!!!

Tuesday

The weather has been tremendously hot these past few days.
Even when I'm just sitting doing nothing, in a few seconds, I will be perspiring as if I had run a marathon or something.
Not that i'll run a marathon, mind you.
Me, running? Never in a million years.
Somehow, I've been having this unsettled feeling.
It's been bothering me alot.
I'm not sure its safe if i were to convey all of my inner thoughts and doubts here.
There are too many eyes out there.
And I just can't risk it.
Often I feel that I am still searching for my identity, my self, my being.
It may be I have not found my real passion in life.
I need to find something that makes me feel worthwhile.
Something that makes me feel important and needed.
Cuz right now I feel like I am a lesser being.
I have no talents that I know of that I'm really good at.
I feel really lacking.
I know, I know. I'm not optimistic.
I want to search for my real abilities, and improve of what I already am.
If that makes sense.
This is all that I'm going to reveal of what's in my head.
There are more where that came from.
But they are for me to know, and for you not to find out.